It is so easy to forget God’s faithfulness, isn’t it? In the mundane and the never-ending to-do lists and the busyness of life, I so easily get caught up in my own little world. I have been humbled lately as so many things have brought the big picture into focus. A friend of mine passed away a few weeks ago, and another was recently diagnosed with cancer. Life is so finite, and yet it is so easy to live in worry or chaos without remembering who God is or what our purpose is in the midst of it.
There’s a verse that says: “O Lord, teach us to number our days that we may gain a heart of wisdom” (Psalm 90:12). I am reminded that we aren’t entitled to our days on earth and we are never promised tomorrow. It shifts everything into perspective and reminds me of our deep need for our creator. There have been many things that have happened in our world that are so beyond my understanding; they break my heart. It is difficult to understand how such a kind God could also allow such deep heartache.
But I am also reminded that these things break His heart too. The brokenness of our world isn’t a reflection of Him; it’s a reminder of our great need for Him. In the turbulence of life, He alone is the one we can cling to.
And it’s much easier said than done, is it not? I can talk about the faithfulness of God all day, but do I actually know Him? Do I truly believe that God is the same in the dark of the night and the light of the day? Do I believe that the God of the big picture is also the God of the mundane? I wrestle and I am challenged, but there is also beautiful growth in it.
As I grapple with what I believe, these questions can produce fear and a tendency to try and fix myself. In those moments, my faithfulness fails me. Or, I can invite God into it and ask Him to teach me. I can cling to the fact that He is faithful, and that He desires to teach us.
And on the days that I invite God in, I am blown away by who He is, and my spirit is at rest because I am resting in His faithfulness rather than my own.
And so I pray that over our campus today, too, and I pray that you could be reminded of God’s faithfulness and cling to it with me. I pray that we could remind each other of it day in and day out.
O Lord, teach us to number our days, so that we may gain a heart of wisdom. Teach us to invite you into the little things and the big; teach us how to walk with you day in and day out. We need you deeply, and we want to know you. Thank you that we cling to your faithfulness and not our own.